Lover of words

I know it has been a while since my last entry. Things have been busy. I am still writing and I am loving it as usual. I am also acting and singing. I don't know, but I think I have recently renewed or awakened the creative side of my life.

I was in a church play and I got so many good comments on my performance...It's amazing how much I enjoyed performing. I had a ball! So, I am taking all opportunities and venturing out in hopes of reaching another level.

However, I am a chicken, a scaredy cat, I'm yella! I have a chance to audition for a play today that I believe I can do. But, I have never auditioned for a play, at least not for one that will charge people to see. I don't have a monologue or a simple song that I can sing to show off my voice and it's range. I am plagued with fears of failure or ridicule. I have prayed over it and I have thought it through. But, I am too chicken. What if I am horrible? What if I am a joke?

Should I allow the few compliments I received at church to enlarge my head and later step out and fall over?

I don't know. Maybe I just need more training. Maybe if I can get my hands on some books and take a couple of acting classes, I will gain more confidence. Maybe!

Okay,

I haven't been on for a while, a year exactly. Well, the family has been through some things, I have been through some things but GOD IS SO GOOD! I am still here. I have good health, I have a sound mind and good job and a brand new HOME! GOD IS GOOD!

I am now settled in and working on my first novel. It is an adventure. I wasn't aware of all of the particulars you must be aware of. But, I actually enjoy it. WOW!

I often wonder if God knows. If God knows how I feel, what I feel and what I want to feel.
I often wonder.